you know my heart,

so tell me honestly did you ever really want this?

(L)

its a bit early for a blog?
I normally post them quite late,
but I can't be arsed to post one later on,
so I'll do it now.


Yano when you think everythings so perfect,
somethings bound to go wrong?
Well i was right, everything, somehow, just gets screwed up,
even by the littlest thing,
like my over-paranoid head.
I just makes up stupid stories in my mind, and replay them until i get the worst-case-scenario,
then everything just seems pointless. And I just feel like shit.


I know what would make everything so much betterr now,
but that's not going to happen,
cause I'm an overly romantic typical girl and its not realistic.
But what's wrong with wanting something that's not so predictable?
I want something spontaneous to cheer me up,
even just a nice text. I know that's so small.
But the small things really do cheer me up :/


your a hypocrit,
your nothing special,
and i don't believe a word you say too me.
your ego is nearly as big as the web of lies you've spun,
and there's nothing you can do to make me forget what you said.

thank you.

and goodnight.