Goodbye's are meant for lonely people standing in the rain,

And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same

(L)

Oh god how I wish I was naturally pretty.
LMFAO.
I just look like such a mess atm.
I got out the bath and was a bit like "ohmygod."
I look like I've got a fucking rash on my face where it's so blotchy.
My eyes are like so small its unbelievable and I've got the most awful nose ever.
As you can tell, not the greatest mood ever.
Ergh I just despise myself atm.
Like personality aswell. I'm just a bit of a dick tbh.
I really am.
My own self-conciousness causes me to just constantly abuse other people,
cause it's better than abusing myself.
Fml.
I'm sorry to people. I am a complete dickhead. And I should be shot. In the Face. Repeatedly.


Oh god and slim.
I would kill to have skinny legs.
And no stomach.
And a smaller arse.
I make myself out to be obese LMFAO.
No, I know I'm not absolutly hench.
But I really really really wish I was naturally skinny.
Diets just make me overly depressed.
Excerise actually kills my legs + arms + back + stomach.
This is how fucking unfit I am.
My food for today has been:
Cereal, Two Apples and A Chocolate Biscuit.
I'M SO HUNGRY ):
This better be worth it.


Well yeah,
Shit mood.
Shit day.
Shit week.
Shit weather.
Shit diet.
Shit insomnia.
Shit parents.
Shit options.
Shit school.
Shit pessimism.


Bye.

I am someone else when I'm with you, someone more like myself.

I Don't Expect Anyone To Read These,

But They Are Physically the Most Incredible Quotes.

Ever.

Unhappiness doesn't come from not having something you want, but from the lack of something inside that you need.


There are things to hold and things to let go, and letting go doesn't mean you lose, but that you acquire that which has been waiting around the corner.


Do not take anything as being forever, because forever is only as long as today.


Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.


Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone.


I love that you get cold when it is 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.


Is this the end of the moment? Or just a beautiful unfolding, of a love that will never be? Or maybe, this is everything that I never thought could happen, or ever come to pass. And I wonder if maybe, I could be all you ever dreamed of.


When I was younger I saw my daddy cry and curse at the wind he broke his own heart and I watched as he tried to reassemble it. And my momma swore that she would never let herself forget and that was the day that I promised I'd never sing of love if it does not exist. But darling, you are the only exception. I know, somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts. And we've got to find other ways to make it alone, keep a straight face. And I've always lived like this. Keeping a comfortable, distance and up until now had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness because none of it was ever worth the risk. Well, you are the only exception. I've got a tight grip on reality but I can't let go of what's in front of me here. I know you're leaving in the morning, when you wake up. Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream. You are the only exception. You are the only exception. And I'm on my way to believing.




No-one probably read this. Don't blame you.
I just thought I'd pour my heart out a bit more.
Much Love.

take me away.

You are the reason I am the best I'll be

So let me stitch your heart so it won't bleed

And I won't rest until you finally breathe

'Cause I still love you more than anything

(LL)

I want to do something really spontaneous.

I want to go out of the country actually LOL.

I've never been really interested in travelling,

Geography always bored me,

Other countries didn't seem that different to here.

But they are.

And I was kidding myself.

I get so jealous when other people go to all these amazing places,

Florida, Thailand, New York, Spain, Mexico, Cuba, Italy, Ibiza.

I want to go somewhere.

It sucks not having enough money :/

Sorry about complaining,

I'm in a jealous mood,

I want what everyone else has atm.

I'm in a bit of self-pity.

I just want some money, to do things that everyone else does,

I dont want to feel like a charity everytime someone buys me something,

cause I kick up a fuss and look like a dick.

I want decent clothes, decent shoes, decent hair,

decent make-up, decent everything.

Not so i'm spoilt.

Just so I dont look like a fucking pikey,

and never have any money for anything.

I've been listening to so much music recently aswell,

I'm in a bit of a dream world,

I'm just drifting through life, not doing or saying much,

I'll stare into space for ages,

I'll only eat when someone makes me something

cause I cant be arsed to make it myself.

I'll lay in bed until about 3am just thinking about 'what if's'

and then wake up and start again.

I feel a bit empty.

Like somethings missing.

I can't wait for camping, honestly,

It's the one thing I'm looking foward to now,

I just want to feel independent again,

I want to feel free?

I want to be able to not care what I look like,

I want to be able to laugh and cry with my best friends,

and not to worry about people staring at us.

I want to fall asleep in someones arms and just feel happy when I wake up.

I want to see Daisies face when she wakes up on her birthday,

and finds everyone crowding round her.

I want 1st May now pls.

Well thanks Blogger,

I'll see you later :)

I'd rather be anywhere but here without you.

'Cause you are beautiful inside

So lovely and I

Can't see why I'd do anything without you,

And when Im not with you

I know that its true

That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you (L)'

I literally just fell in love with SafetySuit,

they write the most incredible lyrics.

I cried at how lovely they are,

that's how pathetic I am xD

But, Anywhere But Here,

Something I Said,

and Find A Way,

are the best songs I've heard in a while.

Take a listen will ya?!

:)

I've been in a pretty shit mood all day,

I'm drifting away from a few people I never wanted to.

But I am getting closer with a few people I never thought I'd be this close with.

But yeah, I feel extremly ill, tired,

and really deathly tbqh.

My eyes itch, my skin feels like its on fire,

and I keep getting cold sweats.

Attractive Kira, reaaaal attractive.

I'm gonna try and sleep loads tonight,

cause I haven't slept in a number of days,

due to my dog barking at everything,

and just waking up from nightmares :

Like not even 'scary' nightmares,

more worrying stuff.

Dont worry.

I'm just a bit drowsy and abusive atm LOL.

Everything's making me upset,

Everything's annoying me,

The littlest things are making me angry.

And I just want a hug LOL.

Sorry I'm in a bad mood.

Bipolar I tell ye.

Well I'm gonna be off,

I'll blog as soon as I can.

PEACE OWT GIRL SCOWT :)

Nobodies Perfect,

But I'm Perfectly Happy :)
(L)

Well hello.
I'm in an awfully good mood and I thought I'd blog it ;]


I adore my life atm,
Everything's pretty good.
I've just spent the day with my favouritest person in the world,
just lazying around doing nothing,
and I felt completely comfortable being my complete self,
and I havent felt like that in a while tbh.
Georgee; i love you (: (L)



My friends are epic, and have just been making me laugh all evening,
I'm going to China Town on Sunday which I'm quite excited about,
I'm probably going to see all my friends on Saturday which should be lovely,
and tomorrow I'm just gonna hang out with Drew and have a little bitchfest as you do.
So yeah, everythings perfect.


Tbh, I'm not even that bothered about going back to school,
it's getting lighter in the mornings now which is immense,
cause I fucking hated getting up in the dark (':
Next week I should have the money to buy some hair dye and get a red tint back on my mop.


The one thing I need to do though,
IS STOP FUCKING EATING SO MUCH.
I'm just putting weight back on,
over half term,
I just fucked my diet, and ate so much take-away and chocolate.
I've only been doing 30 sit ups a night,
compared to my normal 200.
Thats bad I tell ye.
STOP IT KIRA. :')


I'm happy.
I'm loved.
I'm optimistic.
I'm complete.
I'm Kira Reynolds.
And I love my life :]

the words that would mend, remain unspoken.

Tap on my window, knock on my door,

I want to make you feel beautiful,

I know I tend to get so insecure,

It doesn't matter anymore.

(L)

I'm so apathetic recently.

I don't feel anything.

I'm not happy.

I'm not sad.

I'm not angry.

I'm not excited.

I'm just.

Uncomfortable.

I feel like, in the end,

everything adds up too nothing.

No matter how hard you try,

how much you want something,

it doesn't make a difference to if you get it or not.

I also feel quite needy atm.

Like I dont want to feel like it.

I just feel a bit unloved,

I mean, god knows I'm not,

but I just need someone with me a lot of the time.

Like I absolutly hate being on my own,

I just think to much.

Everythings taking it's toll,

little cracks are starting to get bigger,

and problems are cropping up everywhere,

and I dont have the strength to make things better anymore.

I'm sorry.

I'm Kira Reynolds.

And I'm completely lost.

dont bother giving me your heart, i'll rip it out.

You regret every single word,
You take back every line,
Your only wish in your broken world,

Was for him to call you ‘mine’.

(LL)

I don't know why I care so much about this?

It really shouldn't bother me what the fuck you do,

But it does. And I can't figure out why.

For once, someone just listen to my advice.

I'm positive on this one.

So here goes,

I'm a bit fucked up today.

I just feel angry at everything,

and upset about nothing at all.

Plus I feel so ill,

like dizzy, drowsy and just damn right sick.

I've just been down right moody and 'orrible,

and I apologise.

But, Valentines Day, was absolutly amazing.

Im not gonna boast cause that'll get me a hate club from single girls,

but it was incredible,

and I had the most amazing time,

and I love George cause I couldn't think of anyone else I'd rather be with (':
(LLLL)

Right now I'm just a bit fucked up.

I'm very inbetween on desicisions.

I'm really starting to dread getting ready in the mornings,

cause I hate spending time getting ready,

I wanna be one of them people thats naturally really pretty,

and slim pls.

I feel like a bit of an elephant atm.

Faaaaaaattty.

I'm just really vunerable right now,

I've never wanted to do this before,

But I really want to cry with someone now.

For someone not to care that my mascara's running,

and to just give me this massive hug and have a long talk.

I want someone to just make me laugh when I'm upset,

to tell me everythings gonna be okay,

cause it will be.

I just can't see it right now.

Plus, I know this sounds selfish and arrogant,

but I want a long text from someone.

That'll take me a million hours to read,

but that'll just make me smile endlessly,

and go "AWH (L)"
cause i could do with that :/

(L)

this has been long,

so I'll shut the fuck up.

THANKS FOR READING ME (:

this was never gonna be simple.

I hate the pain that I went and put you through

And I will never be perfect 'cause I'll never be you

(LL)

I love half term so much (':

Just knowing I don't have to go into school on Monday is lovely,

and knowing I've got an entire week of doing what I want just makes me happy?

Ah I'm in a good mood (:

Plus last night was absolutly lovely,

and today was brilliant,

and tomorrow should be great.

Ah I've got loads to look foward to (':

I guess I haven't got anything negative to say really.

I'm perfectly content right now.

I get a week away from the main problem at school,

and I get a whole week to spend with people I don't see that much :]

So here's too half term :]

Peace Out Girl Scout (L)

I'd be under the impression, that i was somewhere inbetween.

Take me home, I'd rather die than be with you,

Take me home, You have a problem with the truth,

Take me home, Because this happens everytime,

And I knew it would, I knew it would.

(LL)

mayday parade are the sex.

Ahaha, today was quite nice at first actually,

I felt really happy,

I had a good chat and a nice laugh with someone I didn't think I'd ever have that with again,

I thought things were finally going to just be...normal?

I guess I jinxed myself.

Its never going to be 'normal' with us.

I need to stop trying to fix this.

oh and,

GO FUCKING DO ONE YOU TWAT.

afet eight years you'd think you'd treat me like i wasnt a piece of shit on your shoe,

or just baggage that comes along with the package.

yano you might even think you'd grow to act like a dad,

but your not a fucking dad,

you never will be cause you a horrible,

ignorant cunt, that only thinks about getting pissed and spending OUR money.

and you thinking you can take the piss out of my real dad,
is a pisstake, cause your not even a real dad to your own kids.

so go screw yourself,

your never gonna be ANYTHING to me,

so just dont talk to me again.

I've had enough.

Bye Blog.

These words they have no meaning,

If we cannot find the feeling,

That we held on too together,

Try your hardest to remember.

(LL)

Oh god, some people,

just need to get their OWN lives.

I mean fucking hell love,

what do you think your achieving but stalking someone that

OBVIOUSLY,

doesn't want you.

So fuck off,

before I actually make you.

Anyway,

this is really short,

cause I don't feel like writing much tonight,

so i'm gonna go.

Night Blogger.

(L)

I haven't been on here in a while.


So how you feeling today Kira?
Mmmnn, Bipolar would be an understatement.


I was absolutly in love with my life from about 7:00am-11:30am.
And then from about 12:00pm onwards, I felt completely disorganised, disfuctional, and just, i guess completely empty.
It's a weird feeling tbqh.
I just couldn't move to do anything,
I couldn't speak,
all i could do was drown it out with YouMeAtSix & Mayday Parade.
I felt like breaking down and crying on someone and screaming what really is bothering me right now. Hah. As if i'd ever have the guts to tell anyone.


Anyway,
6th February.
I saw THE most incredible,
THE most fittest,
THE most note-perfect band i've ever seen live.
All Time Low, were fucking amazing,
and despite ruining my hair extensions,
being pressed up against a million sweaty people,
having my arse pinched by some rank ginger kid,
it was absolutly incredible.
And Mr Alex Gaskarth has the most gorgeous smile i've ever seen (L)


so now, I'm in the clear for red hair,
cause although my extensions arent completely dead,
they look really thin and tacky.
FAILFAILFAILFAILFAILFAIL.


All i'm praying for now, is for Half Term to hurry up and come,
my mum not to find out I ruined about £50 worth of hair,
my real hair to get its arse in gear and grow a little,
and for this weekend to be absolutly incredible, cause I really could do with a good smile :]

thats so typical, your so cynical.

Stand A Little Too Tall,

Say A Little Too Much,

Gotta Bite That Know-It-All Tongue
;] (L)

People are getting happier,
slowly but surely :)
And it'sss loveeely too watch that :]

Plus,

I absolutly adoree my life atm,

i mean there's always gonna be those small things that aggravate me,

but hey?

They make it all the more interesting :)

And Spring is hereeee!
Well its still winter,

but I saw some daffodils coming up and it really made me smile :]

A lot of things have been making me smile recently?

I'm laughing at everything,

I'm smiling at strangers,

I'm jumping about singing 24/7 despite my tone death voice,

I feel all bubbly inside, and I love it.

I'm definatly the happiest I've been in ages.

Everythings pretty amaazing at the moment.

-touch wood-

Tbqh I think I'm gonna mention a few people here,

Drew Wyllie,

Daisie Tuson,

George Gant,

Jade Warden.

you four have actually made me smile so much this week,

and i love you for making me this happy :] (L)

So here's too the future,

and making 2010 absolutly incredible,
despite it's shit start (':

I'm Kira Reynolds,

And I Love My Life (L)

you are an example of better things to come.

Step outside the summertime's in bloom

Stand up beside the fireplace

Take that look from off your face

You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
(LL)

I just read a bunch of blogs and said to myself
"are people really this fucking suicidal?"
jeezzz.

everyone is actually at breaking point,

its upsetting tbh.

I really dislike seeing people I love like this,

and I feel like going round and giving everyone a massive hug.

I know how exactly how two of those people feel,

and I hate knowing how it feels to go through it,

and then watching them go through it.

They're both going through completely different things but

It hurts more than most people can imagine.

So to those two people,

cheer up, everything happens for a reason.

On a brighter note,

I'm getting my hair cut tonight.

Well trimmed.

And finally my fucking hench fringe,

cut a little shorter,

cause the length of it is a pisstake now.

I'm in a bit of an apathetic mood tbh,

I dont know how I feel.

On one hand, I brought myself a pyschology book,

and it's actually the most interesting thing I've ever read.

Plus I learnt how to tell if people are lying ;]

So hah. Dont lie to me :)

So that makes me happy.

On another hand, my lifes a bit all over the place.

One minute I like someone, the next I hate them.

One minute I really want to be alone, the next I wanna be in a massive group.

Everythings a bit stange atm,

but hey, that's life I guess.

It's also Valentines day soon?
And despite being with someone, who i love,

I still fucking hate the day LOL.

The majority of people are walking round with a face like a smacked arse,

cause they're single,

And other's are doing PDA all across the streets.

So I'm not a massive fan of it,

it's just another way of shops making money tbqh.

But let's all put a smile on our faces,

and stop acting like the world's gonna end.

Cause life goes on.

Everyone learns to deal with it,

so how bout you all just


SMILEEEEEEEEEEE :]

every now and again.

Well, fankz (L)

this contagious chemistry is killing me.

Dearest Enemy,

You Should Have NEVER Trusted Me (L)

phwoaaar I'm in an amazing mood tbqh :)

I've lost even more weight,

and even though its not that noticable,

its dropping,

and soon I'll be....a bit more attractivee?

LMAO.

notetoself: eat more apples.

All Time Low in FOUR DAYS?!?
im so excited,

everyone is going,

and it's going to be absolutly amazinggg (L)

And Mr Alex Gaskarth,

is going to be so fit in real life.

-orgasm-

;]

But chyeaaaah,

I made a fresh start with a few people,

and I feel good for it.

A lot of people aren't extremly happy,

and by a lot,

I mean the entire basis of my group,

but heyho,

I'll be the happy one for once,

and I'll be the one that makes them smile :)

On another notee.

today was raaaather great :)

I didn't realise how much I miss my other friends in the week,

and we must do it more,

cause it made me day,

well my week :)

AND OHMYGAWWD,

I'M SO EXCITED FOR CAMPINGG(l)

phwoar,

its gonna be a bit different I know,

but maybe different is good :)

We always have a great time,

let's hope its the best trip yet =']

So hey,

whoever thought I'd be this optimistic,

I'm gonna cheer some people up,

and make people as happy as me :]

Thanks World,

its about time I felt like this :')

PEACEEE OUT, GIRRL SCOUT (LL)