For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic :)

Well 'iyaaaaarh! :)
I'm very content at this particular moment.
Laying awake last night,
after the biggest bitch session ever with Daisie + Alex,
I had a revelation.
No matter how much, I tried,
Gave you what you wanted,
Gave into everything,
We were never going to work.
This was not my fault.
And after telling myself that.
I felt something lift inside of me,
like literally it felt like some massive weight had been lifted off my heart.
Cause sometimes, what you want isn't what's best for you.
And even though fate has a funny way of telling you that,
everything happens for a reason.
And now I'm happy to just be, well, me?


I'm happy not being tied down,
I'm happy not worrying what your gonna think of me.
I'm happy wearing what I want and not thinking you'll critise me.
I'm happy because I know you've said so much crap about me behind my back,
and I have been the bigger person. I haven't once stooped down to your level,
and in that sense, I'm proud of myself :)


In the last two weeks, I've grown up a hell of a lot.
I'm not immature anymore,
I'm not letting people walk all over me.
And I've learnt that I don't need to be something I'm not,
for people to like me.
So if you don't like me, then heyho. Learn to deal with it.


I can't fucking wait for Campimg.
It's only a month away,
and I can't wait.
Yeah, maybe It'll be a bit awkward.
But in all honesty,
It's just gonna be fun. And laid back.
And I'm gonna make the most of it :)


I'm Optimistic (L)

Thank You

&

Goodnight

(L)