every kiss that you could ever mean, never meant a thing to me.

Well I thought that we could sit around and talk for hours

About things I couldn't say to you,

And things that we could never do

(LL)

I want to scream.

I want to tell someone, what's bothering me,

even though I can't even bring myself to admit it.

I want to just sit and talk with someone that's not gonna tell me how pathetic i'm being,

how utterly ridiculous I am, and how much of a sorry excuse for a person I am.

I want things back the way the were,

cause atm I'm just drifting away.

I'm more withdrawn than ever.

And it's all cause I can't handle my own fucking emotions. I'm pathetic.

I love my friends too pieces, but I just can't talk to anyone anymore.

Its not their fault in the slightest.

I'm just not comfortable anymore.

I'm tired constantly, not physically, but just tired of everything.

The same old routine continuosly.

I get up, I go to school, I come home.

I go out at the weekends. I see my dad.

I eat. I sleep. I do homework.

That's it.

And I just let this happen because I'm too scared that something'll go wrong if I change it.

I can't even text anyone cause I went over,

and I don't get my new texts till Friday.

So I'm just stuck laying in bed thinking.

Thinking has become the worst thing for me.

I just evaluate things so much,

it seems so much worse than it is.

Your the reason I feel like this.

And it's all my fault.

You've done nothing to deserve my trust,

and you've proved that, time and time again.

So I won't tell because it won't matter to you.

So I'll hide this.

The only thing worse than not telling you,

is telling you.

Night Blogger :/