Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul
That love never lasts and we've got to find other ways
To make it alone or keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness because none of it was ever worth the risk
(LL)
fml. thank you for summing up everything i feel in one verse paramore.
I'm tired off being the tough, 'ard person that gets through absolutly everything without a scratch on her.
Cause this is all i've been through this.
I've smiled, I've laughed, I've changed myself to convince myself I'm better than you.
But I can't keep doing this.
I can't keep telling people I'm absolutly fine, and then going home and just feeling like there's nothing left.
Cause that's what I do.
I go home, I go upstairs and stare at the ceiling for about 3 hours trying to figure out where the fuck I'm hoping to go.
Everyone else around me is so wrapped up in their own problems, no seems to see that everything I do,
is just a little bit over-the-top.
I'm just a little to happy.
I'm just a bit too giggly.
I'm just a little to 'okay' with the people that have caused this.
I know that it's not anyone's fault.
Why would you look for emotions that I've told you I don't feel?
Well maybe because I'm a liar. And half of you should know that by now.
I lie so much, and I wish I could stop. But, I quote Mean Girls here, its like word vomit,
I can't stop saying them, they just slip out so easily, no-one knows and I'm so good at it.
That's not being arrogant.
But lying just comes naturally, I convince people to believe something so easily.
Sometimes I wish people would figure me out.
I'm just a mess inside,
I'm so fucked up in my head,
I've just taken to not caring anymore.
I don't give a shit about anyone but myself and I've never been like this before.
Probably because now all this has blown over, I don't, I can't and I won't trust anyone,
Just cause it's not worth the risk anymore.
The funny thing is, I don't want to be with you.
A relationship is the LAST thing I want.
All I want right now, is too be able to look at you and just think,
"we're friends and i dont feel anything else."
but i guess that'll come with time?
pah. idk.
I'm having a bad day,
and I really do hope I don't feel like this tomorrow,
cause I don't wanna give you the satisfaction of knowing I take 3 steps foward and 4 steps back.
I'm sorry I can't even fucking be this close to you without getting false hope,
cause you've moved on. and 'we' are never going to happen again.
so here's too everything i dont want to feel.
That love never lasts and we've got to find other ways
To make it alone or keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness because none of it was ever worth the risk
(LL)
fml. thank you for summing up everything i feel in one verse paramore.
I'm tired off being the tough, 'ard person that gets through absolutly everything without a scratch on her.
Cause this is all i've been through this.
I've smiled, I've laughed, I've changed myself to convince myself I'm better than you.
But I can't keep doing this.
I can't keep telling people I'm absolutly fine, and then going home and just feeling like there's nothing left.
Cause that's what I do.
I go home, I go upstairs and stare at the ceiling for about 3 hours trying to figure out where the fuck I'm hoping to go.
Everyone else around me is so wrapped up in their own problems, no seems to see that everything I do,
is just a little bit over-the-top.
I'm just a little to happy.
I'm just a bit too giggly.
I'm just a little to 'okay' with the people that have caused this.
I know that it's not anyone's fault.
Why would you look for emotions that I've told you I don't feel?
Well maybe because I'm a liar. And half of you should know that by now.
I lie so much, and I wish I could stop. But, I quote Mean Girls here, its like word vomit,
I can't stop saying them, they just slip out so easily, no-one knows and I'm so good at it.
That's not being arrogant.
But lying just comes naturally, I convince people to believe something so easily.
Sometimes I wish people would figure me out.
I'm just a mess inside,
I'm so fucked up in my head,
I've just taken to not caring anymore.
I don't give a shit about anyone but myself and I've never been like this before.
Probably because now all this has blown over, I don't, I can't and I won't trust anyone,
Just cause it's not worth the risk anymore.
The funny thing is, I don't want to be with you.
A relationship is the LAST thing I want.
All I want right now, is too be able to look at you and just think,
"we're friends and i dont feel anything else."
but i guess that'll come with time?
pah. idk.
I'm having a bad day,
and I really do hope I don't feel like this tomorrow,
cause I don't wanna give you the satisfaction of knowing I take 3 steps foward and 4 steps back.
I'm sorry I can't even fucking be this close to you without getting false hope,
cause you've moved on. and 'we' are never going to happen again.
so here's too everything i dont want to feel.
Thank You
&
Goodnight
(LL)
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